
The Sixth Tread from āCall Me A.CĀ Green..(Poem):
āVirginity as a Gift: Building Integrity for My Future Wife”
“One DM from a girl resembling Vanity⦠My sex drive is packaged as a gift for my future wifey.” Thatās the line I walkāa fleeting temptation in my inbox, a spark that could ignite my sex drive, yet a choice to hold it back. Virginity isnāt just a status for me; itās a gift, something Iām shaping with every ānoā I say to the now, saving it for my future wife. A message pops up, her words dripping with allure like Vanity, the singer whose beauty once captivated the world. But I scroll past, not because Iām immune, but because integrity matters more. Kantās principle whispers in my ear, and scripture seals it: āHusbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the churchā (Ephesians 5:25). My virginity is a promise, a piece of me Iām building for her.
Temptationās Knock
Temptation doesnāt come with a warning labelāit slips in quietly, like that DM lighting up my phone. Sheās not just a name; sheās a mirror of Vanityāstunning, magnetic, a test of my resolve. My sex drive kicks in, a natural pulse I canāt deny. I could reply, let the conversation flow, see where it leads. No one would know. But I stop myself. Not out of fear, but out of something deeperāa principle Iāve chosen to live by. That moment isnāt just about resisting; itās about building, stacking another brick of integrity for the man I want to be.
Vanityās allure fades when I think of whatās ahead. Temptation promises a thrill, but itās fleetingāa sugar rush that leaves me empty. My sex drive isnāt the enemy; itās a force Iām channeling, a gift Iām wrapping up for someone I havenāt met yet. One swipe, one reply, could unravel that, but Iād rather hold it together for her.
Integrity Over Impulse
Integrity isnāt loudāitās steady, a quiet strength that grows every time I choose the long game over the short one. Kant, the philosopher, talked about the categorical imperative: act in a way youād want to be universal, a rule for everyone. For me, thatās what virginity becomesāa principle, not just a personal quirk. Iām not saving it because itās easy; Iām saving it because itās right, because Iād want my future wife to trust me with her whole self too. Itās a standard I set for myself, a way of living that says my word, my body, my soulāthey all mean something.
This isnāt about shutting down my sex driveāitās about giving it purpose. That DM might stir it up, but integrity keeps it in check. Iām not perfect; some days, the temptation feels like a tug-of-war. But every time I walk away, Iām stronger, more the man I want her to find when the time comes.
Scriptureās Blueprint
Scripture gives me the why behind the what. Ephesians 5:25 isnāt just a verseāitās a vision: āHusbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her.ā Thatās the kind of love Iām preparing forāsacrificial, selfless, all-in. My virginity isnāt a badge of pride; itās a piece of that giving, a way Iām starting now to love her like Christ loved. Itās not about rulesāitās about relationship, about showing up for her with something pure and whole.
Then thereās Proverbs 4:23: āKeep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flow the springs of life.ā My heartās where this battle plays outāwhere temptation meets integrity, where my sex drive meets my faith. Guarding it isnāt passive; itās active, a choice to protect what flows from it. That DM could crack the door open, but Proverbs tells me to lock it tightānot out of paranoia, but out of care for what Iām building.
A Gift Worth Waiting For
Virginity as a gift isnāt a clichĆ© to meāitās real. Itās not just about my body; itās about my character, my commitment, the way Iām shaping myself for my future wife. That girl like Vanity? Sheās a shadow, a flicker of now. My future wife is the flame Iām saving this forāa love I havenāt seen yet but believe in enough to wait for. My sex drive isnāt wasted; itās packaged, tied with the ribbon of integrity, ready for the day itās hers.
This gift isnāt about denying myselfāitās about defining myself. Every temptation I turn from is a step toward her, a piece of trust Iām earning before we even meet. Kantās principle keeps me honest; scripture keeps me hopeful. Together, they turn my virginity into something active, not passiveāa choice I make for love.
The Man Iāll Be
So I let that DM sit unanswered, not because Iām better than anyone, but because Iām building something bigger. My future wife deserves a man whoās wrestled with temptation and won, not by luck, but by principle. My sex drive is hers, a gift Iām keeping safe with every ānoā I say today. Vanity canāt sway meānot when integrityās my compass and faithās my guide.
On lifeās court, Iām still A.C. Greenāsharp, steadfast, unashamed. My virginity isnāt a burden; itās a promise, a piece of me Iām crafting for her, day by day.
The Fifth Tread from āCall Me A.CĀ Green..(Poem):
āHow Wisdom Keeps Lust at Bay”












