The Fifth Tread from “Call Me A.C Green..(Poem):
“How Wisdom Keeps Lust at Bay”

“I’m one swipe away from fulfilling my sexual appetite, but letting God take control keeps my soul from going wild.” That’s the edge I live on every day—a single flick of my finger could unravel everything I’ve built, yet I choose to hold back. It’s not because I don’t feel the pull; my sexual appetite is real, raw, a wild part of me that roars to be let loose. But I’ve learned that giving in doesn’t tame it—it sets it free in all the wrong ways. Instead, I trust God to harness that energy, to keep my soul steady when temptation presses in. Kierkegaard called this a leap of faith; scripture puts it plainly: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart” (Proverbs 3:5). One swipe could change everything, but faith keeps me grounded.

The Power of a Swipe

Technology has made temptation closer than ever. One swipe on an app, one tap on a screen, and I could feed my sexual appetite in an instant. It’s not just about dating apps—it’s the whole digital world, dangling possibilities that feel so easy, so right there. My wild side doesn’t need much convincing; it’s ready to run, to chase the thrill that’s always just a click away. But I know where that road leads: a quick high, a hollow crash, a soul left restless instead of satisfied. That’s the trap of the swipe—freedom that feels like a cage.

This isn’t hypothetical for me. I’ve felt the itch, the moment where my thumb hovers over the screen, daring me to act. My sexual appetite isn’t some distant thing—it’s a fire inside, wild and alive. But I’ve seen what happens when I let it rule me. It’s not liberation; it’s chaos. So I pause, breathe, and turn it over to something bigger.

Free Will and the Wild

Here’s the tension: I’ve got free will. I could swipe. I could say yes to temptation and let my soul run wild. No one’s stopping me—not physically, anyway. Kierkegaard, the philosopher, wrestled with this too. He called faith a leap, a choice to trust when every instinct screams to jump the other way. That’s where I am—one swipe away, standing at the edge of my own leap. My wild side wants control, but free will means I don’t have to give it. I can choose differently.

That choice isn’t easy. Temptation doesn’t just knock—it pounds, loud and insistent. My sexual appetite isn’t wrong—it’s human—but letting it steer me unchecked turns it into something destructive. Free will gives me power, but it also gives me responsibility. I could feed the wildness, or I could tame it. And that’s where God comes in.

Trusting God’s Control

Proverbs 3:5 hits me hard: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.” It’s not about ignoring my desires—it’s about handing them over. I don’t trust myself to tame my soul’s wild side alone; I’ve tried, and it’s a losing fight. But God? He’s got the strength I don’t. When I’m one swipe away, I don’t just resist—I release. I let Him take the wheel, trusting that He knows what’s best for this wild, restless part of me.

Then there’s Exodus 14:14: “The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” That’s my anchor. I don’t have to wrestle temptation into submission—God’s already in the ring. My job is to be still, to stop my thumb from swiping, to let Him calm the storm inside. It’s not suppression—it’s surrender. My sexual appetite doesn’t disappear; it’s redirected, held for a purpose I can’t always see but choose to believe in.

Faith Over Frenzy

This is where faith becomes real. It’s not a vague hope—it’s a lifeline when my soul’s wild side threatens to take over. Kierkegaard’s leap isn’t blind; it’s bold, a trust that God’s got me even when I’m shaky. One swipe could unleash chaos, but faith keeps me steady. It’s not about killing my desires—it’s about trusting they’re better off in His hands than mine. The wildness isn’t gone; it’s just not running the show.

Some days, that trust feels like a wrestle. Temptation doesn’t back off—it doubles down, daring me to test my limits. But I’ve learned to lean on Proverbs 3:5, to whisper Exodus 14:14 to myself when the urge hits. Faith isn’t passive—it’s active, a choice I make every time I don’t swipe, every time I let God tame what I can’t.

A Soul Worth Saving

In the end, it’s my soul I’m protecting—not from desire, but from destruction. One swipe could satisfy my sexual appetite for a moment, but it’d leave my wild side hungrier, more untamed. Trusting God doesn’t erase the fire—it refines it. My soul stays wild in the best way: alive, vibrant, but not reckless. Faith turns temptation into a proving ground, a place where I see what I’m made of and who I’m made for.

So I stand, one swipe away, and choose God over the frenzy. My wild side doesn’t win—not because I’ve crushed it, but because I’ve given it to Someone stronger.

The Fourth Tread from “Call Me A.C Green..(Poem):
“How Wisdom Keeps Lust at Bay”